It has been a long, long time since my last blog post. Novemver 16th, 2010 was my last one. I really intended to keep writing but I suppose life got in the way.

I really wish I'd taken the time to keep it up. SO much has happened in my life in the past 2+ years. The year 2012 was probably the most horribly difficult year of my entire life. And by probably, I really mean definitely. It was awful. That's not to say there weren't good things, good moments, but as a whole, it was awful. So many things changed that year. I changed. A lot. And it sucked. (I'll probably talk more about this later)

But at the end of the year a most incredible thing happened. My best friend asked me how I felt about being set up w/ someone, as there was a guy she worked with that she thought I might like. I remember my first question being "Is he cute?" and she says "Um...I guess? He's my friend, can I think my guy friends are cute?"

She texted him and he ended up adding me on Facebook where we began our first conversation. It lasted four hours. Late into the night. At the end, he said "How about next time we skip this Facebook nonsense and you just text me?" and gave me his number. I could hardly wait...I texted him the moment I woke up. He responded instantly, like he'd been waiting for me. We spent the next four days texting pretty much non-stop. And I really mean non-stop. It was a little ridiculous. Five days later we met...and it was the best night ever. We had set it up as a double date w/ Jessica (the one who introduced us) and her husband to make it more comfortable, although halfway through the week we were wishing it would just be the two of us.

We spent a decent amount of time discussing what we would do upon our first meeting...high five, awkward wave, handshake, exchange of business cards, etc...I told him I would probably want a hug, which he said would be ok...but we weren't really sure if we'd feel that way in the moment. We decided to play it by ear.

So I was over at Jessica's house and realized that part of what was making me so nervous was the thought of my first moment meeting him would be in the presence of other people. So, I told him to text me when he arrived and I'd come out to meet him. He sends me a text, I walk outside and don't see him in the parking lot. So I run back inside to grab my phone to text him. As I run back out the door, he comes around the corner...flowers in hand....and we just hug. We hug so tightly, and I whisper "I can't believe you're finally here" and he says the same...It literally felt like we were two people who were madly in love and had been seperated for a long time and were finally being reunited. It was truly the most incredible feeling.

We had sushi with Jess and Eric and then went to see Les Mis. Mike held my hand and stroked my arm through the entire movie. I cried a LOT during the movie and he brushed away my tears. I'm not even kidding. I didn't even know guys did that for real.

After the movie we dropped Jessica and Eric off at their house and headed off to find a place to spend some time by ourselves to chat. We ended up at IHOP as it was after 10 and we figured we'd need some time. I get out of my car and go to walk by him when he grabs me, pulls me back and kisses me. He said "I've been wanting to do that since the moment I saw you."  It was perfect. The most beautiful first kiss I've ever experienced. Every time I drive by that IHOP I get butterflies.

We sat down, ordered some pumpkin pancakes, and got started. We didn't stop talking until 4am. Our server didn't know what to do with us...we really just wanted to be left alone, but he was so bored. But, yeah....that means we were there for almost 6 hours. We talked about absolutely everything you could even imagine. Told our life stories, our dreams and goals and hopes for the future.

I wish I could put into words every single detail of our relationship and how amazing it was to find someone that was so easy to fall in love with. He told me he loved me just 9 days after we met. I said it back to him and told him that I've wanted to say it for a while but wanted to wait for him. I literally had to hold it back in the previous days...it just felt so natural for me to say it. I've never experienced that with anyone before. There have been guys I've said it to, and there was one I wanted to say it to but never could...but even the ones I said it to, it never felt completely natural.

I am completely, head over heels in love with Mike. I don't doubt his love for me, ever. We've had some struggles, mostly due to the fact that he's very busy and I don't get as much time with him as I'd like (and other issues that come along w/ that lack of time) but I've never been with someone who is so EASY to be with. I'm so comfortable with him. I trust him with my life. More than anything, I hope that he is the one I spend my life with as I just can't imagine not having him in my life. On top of how I feel with him, I feel so loved and accepted by his family, which is a pretty wonderful thing as well.

I could go on forever. But I'll stop for now. Hopefully I'll be back before too long. (as if anyone even reads this)


Jamie