Something I've Never Done Before

This coming Monday our Explorations class starts at church. It's a class mainly for people with questions about God. A place where any and every question is allowed and encouraged. It's a place where you can not only ask these questions, but a place where you will not be made to feel out of place or uncomfortable for asking some of the difficult ones. It's a safe environment for people of all faiths who are seeking a deeper understanding of the God that I worship.

And here's the kicker, I'm actually facilitating this time around. I've never facilitated a table before, and to be honest I was a little freaked out at the thought of THIS class being the first one. There are a few other classes I could have done that would have made this first time a little less scary.

I know that I'm not expected to have answers to everything. I'm not expected to be a Bible scholar. The people that lead the class have made this VERY clear.

But there's still a part of me that worries I will be a huge failure. I worry that something will come up that I'm clueless about and that my response will be to just freeze up and say nothing. Again, I'm not expected to have answers for everything, and they did set me up with a very experienced co-facilitator.

I KNOW things will be good. I KNOW that I am here for a purpose. I have been in situations where I've felt God speak through me and I know He's perfectly capable of doing it again. He has all the right words, and He certainly can make them come out of my mouth.

As this class gets closer, I am filled with a variety of emotions. A little fear, some nervousness....but mostly excitement. I'm excited to see what God does through this class. I know amazing things always happen (I've heard the stories!) and I know He will come through for us again.

I am also grateful. INCREDIBLY grateful for the people that God has put in my life, people who have seen potential in me and called it out and helped me to develop it. This is just another one of those situations I never would have pictured myself in if you'd asked me 2 years ago.

So anyway.....God is pretty amazing. And that's all for now. :)